You Understand This Changes Everything

   I understand. 

But don't feel bad. 

We were meant to meet,

get married,  

have our beautiful daughter.

It all happened 

because it was supposed to.

   I do not understnad

But i do feel bad

We were meant to stay together forever

Happily married

Raise our beautiful daughter

It all ended

Even though it was not supposed to.

   You understand this changes everything

Thermodynamically, i should have anticipated change

Melodramatically, i should have ranted and raved

Nihilistically, i shouldnt have cared

Pragmatically i should have been prepared

Romantically i am cold and broken

Poetically i am trite and dead

Ironically that is all i have ever written and

It is all you have ever read

The Epimethian

I know

It was my fault

Mea culpa

Mea culpa

And Besa me mucho

I hurt for hurting you

I am sore at the point of touch and thought

It is not that i have come to value your esteem

In fact you degrade daily in my visage

And that excavated, planed, and waxed the slope upon which i slid

I was the scarecrow on an ochre-stoned road

All weebled and wobbled and Epimethian.

Did it matter that the ends were justified? 

See I Can Make Pretty Words

See

I can make pretty words

And metaphores 

And alibies

And metaphores that rise and rise

To the heights of paranoia and shame

I can makes pretty and awful sounds

Vibrations that dissipate too soon

And dischords that linger noon afternoon

i could stew

And see if it thickens and combines just right

Missing ingredients too much too few too roux too slight

I could do nothing or something or everything without remorse,

recompense or reward

See

Kiss Me With Your Lying Lips

Kiss me with your lying lips

The truth hurts too much and this

Is a maze and I've eaten all the bread crumbs

Hold me in your nowhere arms

I'll shut my mind to silence alarms

That echo and threaten to betray me

I will love you at all cost

It's not better to have loved and lost

I will love you at all cost

It's better to have never loved at all.

Hide me in your secret heart

I will gladly play the part

A martyr of unrequited love

Assign me to the bottom floor

Treaties never ended wars

At best they only delay

I will love you at all cost

It's not better to have loved and lost

I will love you at all cost

It's better to have never loved at all.

Caterpillar

Caterpillar 

You are beautiful 

I will nourish you

take care of you

Support your track with sturdy trusses

clear markings

you will accompany me as i feed on companionship too

If i am just and true you will leave for another life of unimaginable aerial flights of buoyant whimsy.

no keeping you on earth

All my paint by number sacrifices had one noble purpose-Butterfly

Anything For You

Id give you a rose if i could stand the smell

Id write you a poem but it wouldn't sell

Id wear cologne and smear my hair with gel

Id throw a fortune in a wishing well

I would do

Anything for you

I would do

Anything for you

I'd go down walk in Fairmount Park

Light a fire with sticks and a spark

I'd name a star and prove it in the dark

ride the whip at the amusement park

I would do

Anything for you

I would do 

Anything for you

Go to Amity and swim with the shark

Evade a boulder and peek in the ark

Jump to light speed and make the wookie bark

I would do

Anything for you

I would do 

Anything for you

Invitation to the jubilation

It lays at my feet

An invitation to the jubilation

How can i lift this page without turning another

It is not enough that it is joy upon joy 

It is given freely to one who is not free

Oh free enough that i could embark

And sail like Columbus to the edge of the sea 

where the serpent lives

It lays prostrate on the floor awaiting my descent 

Taunting

Seducing

Pleading 

I only have to reach for it with one tired hand

A hand brazen enough to dare

But not enough for truth

Romantics are Idiots

Romantics are idiots

And i am one too

Your most vital organ

Played and played and played

Poetry metaphor and simile

All and all breaks from reality

And fall after fall

We learn some and all

To retreat from

Their knavish mortality

The Callous are fools

And  i am one too

skin all lacquered and brined

Hard and harder and hardest

Name all the trees you see

And still not see the forest

In This club of exclusivity

That Never rises above their basest proclivity

Mechanical hearts

Beat imperfect symmetry

To the Demons of Our Lesser Nature

Iron grip

You rust with the morning dew

Yes, that sweet and soft tear

That the moon cried on its final egress

Your strength is fleeting in its issue

Your ruse i betrayed in repetition

often reminded of your half-life

In feeblemindedness i digress, degrade

& succumb 

To the Demons of My Lesser Nature

Persistence is a Virtue

What happens when you head off in the wrong direction?  

You meet thick overgrowth and the path is full of vines and thistle burrs. 

It takes tremendous effort to continue.  

Eventually,if you persist, you become adept at clearing a path.  

You excel at this & win awards & accolades lauding your innovative approach to trailblazimg.  

However, as you become more skilled at going forward you hasten the rate at which you veer further off the true path.  Further and further.

If you realize this was the wrong path 

you will simultaneaously realize you are past the point of return and settle down til perdition 

or continue forward mindlessly in an etude of dischordant measures.  

Still, again, you may decide to convince others that this path is the true path 

so that you are not alone in your failure.  

Misery indeed loves company.

Thoughs on Relationships

When those who by constant and close proximity should know you best know you least

When those who by variable and distant expanse know you better than yourself

When denizens of the 4th dimension retrace your footprints and find them pleasing

When bridges set ablaze with intent to ember instead temper

                  Then, Short and wide faces of trepidity will set in your hands

                     Now and then wiping away spectral strands of gossamer

                                              From farsighted eyes.